I’m so fed up with my life. I am so done with everyone and everything. I’m better off alone. Just me, myself, and I. I need to escape into a different world. I need a smoke. I need a drink. I need something. Ugh! I don’t even know anymore. Fuck my fucking life. ASDFGHJKL!?!?! Damn, I don’t even know what I’m doing with my life anymore. Gosh, at this point I am not regretting anything. Wish I was fucking dead. God damn, fucking piece of shit! Urghhh! Fuck you! Thanks for ruining my fucking night!?!?!?
You know, sometimes I just don’t get it. Why are you barely there for me when I need you? I honestly don’t know what to think anymore. It honestly hurts. When I try to tell you something, you get mad before I even start explaining and tell me to shut up because you’ve heard enough. Enough of what!?!?! You only listened to me for like 10 seconds. Gosh! What kind of boyfriend are you!? We use to be so happy. Now we’re yelling at each other and having relationship problems. I know that there is no such thing as a perfect couple but wtf. We’ve only been together for 2 almost 3 months and things are already falling apart. Is this a sign? I have this disgusting gut feeling in my stomach right now. Something is telling me to leave, the other thing is telling me to stay. We were so happy yesterday, and now we’re like this today. I feel like I don’t even know you anymore… I don’t know what to do. Huuuh…I just don’t care anymore. Whatever happens, happens.
Its christmas of 2012. You only live 15 minutes away from me. I look around and see all these couples spending their Christmas Day together. While I’m at home doing nothing you are chilling with your family. But I understand, family first. I just wish to spend this day with you too. I got you a present too..but I guess it can wait. Wish you were here..
I’m so tired of you knocking out on me all the time. The first couple times, I use to think it was cute but now the thought of it is just so annoying and irritating. What happened? We use to stay up super late on the phone talking to each other. Now, all we do is talk a little, then it gets super silent, and the cycle repeats. We’re drifting. You know, all I want is for us to return back to those late night calls. I understand you get tired but sometimes I want some of “US” time. I want to be able to talk to you without you knocking out on me. Goooosh! I’m having second thoughts and everything. We’re fading and I am so close to giving up. Huuuuh, idk where to go on from here besides hang up the phone. I’m not going to sit here and wait for you to wake up from your stupid sleep. I’m done waiting.
My other half & I:)
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It’s about time that I leave you in the past because the more I think about you. The more I fucking hate you. Wish you didn’t exist or wish we never met & had a “thing”. This world is TOO FUCKING SMALL!